Balance has been a word on my heart lately. Maybe because lately I have felt lack of balance. I have felt some days like I am on a wheel that doesn’t stop. I have had a hard time managing things some days and wondering how to do it better. Some of it is coming together and getting better, but I am a work in progress. Today I realized aren’t we all a work in progress and learning as we go. Some days will be better than others and some will be flops in our eyes. But God gives us a new day to shake it off and try again. I believe part of balance is spending time with Him. Hearing His whispers to my heart. I have to admit that I have not made the time for God lately and today He reminded me that is where I find balance when things are running at a high speed. I need to slow down, breathe, and take a moment and most of all spend time with Him daily. My soul needs that and I am thankful that tomorrow is a new day and I can start fresh. Balance is all how we look at things and live in the moments God gives us each day. So I am starting fresh tomorrow and shaking off today.
Well I have managed to not write in a bit. I have been kneed deep in getting my classroom ready for a new school year. I begin this week with a new set of butterflies. This is the time of year when my focus is on one thing and that is getting myself geared up to fuel my passion for teaching. I do have a few more stories from my time on vacation to share later. But for now I am just coming up for a breath of fresh air. Life is meant to fill us with fresh air and passion. I am grateful for a summer that brought me times to reflect and refresh. While it seemed to fly by, I have no regrets. I lived in the moments. Life is about living in the moments God has given us. I don’t want regrets. I am at a point in my life where I am reminded that life’s moments can have passion and purpose. Of course I am not sure why it took so long for me to figure that out. So my friends live in the moments with passion and breaths of fresh air. Enjoy it! It is worth it. I hope to not be gone so long now that I am ready for school and back into a routine. Have some tea, take a breath, and just be.
Being a teacher, I come to know the voices of my students, especially when I have them more than one year. Teaching in a parochial school gives me the chance to get to know my students, my butterflies. I teach in a multi-grade classroom. But sometimes there are strong voices that drown out all the others. There are many reasons why that happens and often I have to seek out the quiet voices. I help them understand we all have a voice and I care about their voice. What do they have to say?
God has a voice as well. So often my voice tries to be loud and chatty so I can make sure He hears me. But when He gets into my heart, I am aware of the fact that I am doing that so I don’t have to be still and listen to Him or deal with my splattered heart right now. Funny how God uses concrete lessons to teach me. He uses the very thing I do daily to make me see how I am just like my students. Lately I have thought God has been silent. That He moved on. But the truth of the matter was it was easier for me to just not hear His voice. I didn’t have to get in the messy and allow Him in my business. I thought I had a better plan. But then things happen along the journey that hurt your heart and your own voice goes quiet. It is there that He makes himself heard in the whispers. My voice being quiet allows Him to be front and center. I hear but it is a while before my heart opens a crack to allow Him in. How interesting that when I am quiet, He begins His work. He has been waiting patiently for me to be ready to rely only on Him. To allow Him to love me in all my messiness and splatter. He will not leave me, friends may, and even family, but not He. He is there for the long road ahead.
Life is an adventure, especially with Him. I am in a season of giving Him the messy, the splattered, the broken, so He can mend and heal my heart and use me as a vessel with purpose. I am finding that this place is not so bad. There is light and light is good. I am ready to get on the move, but I know that means some heart work that might be painful, but so worth it in the end. For I will have a heart that has beauty and treasure and that is worth it all. My friends, we all have seasons that challenge us, bring us joy, hurt, or a variety of other things. But the thing I am learning is that the view on top of the mountain with a God so big is totally worth it. I want Him. I want adventure with Him. I can only imagine what the journey will hold ahead, but I will never know unless I take the leap with Him. That is enough for this messy, splattered butterfly girl who wants to soar.
Blessings and love on your day,